I STRONGLY DISLIKE MY FATHER!!!!..ON THE VERGE OF HATE.?

I understnad that hate is a strong word, but I can't stand him!. Don't get me wrong, he raised me & my two sisters all by hisself but he is such a *****!. I'm 19 my sister is 23 she has a disability & my other sister is 21 she has two kids that he help he take care of. He is always behind on bills & he is bi-polar. One min he is fune, happpy and stuff then the next min he gives me the cold shoulder. Im suppose to be starting school next month & you think he is supportive or even the least bit happy that im trying to further my education? NO!. all he worried about is if "it's going to bring any money in".I've been searching high and low for a job but everyone tell me i have no experience!. he doesn't understand that. All he does is complain & we can't eat anything in this house because he hate when eat it all quickly im like isnt thats why ppl buy food>?!.. Bt anyway Back to the bills. The only 3 bills i cant say i use is the Mortagage, Electric & water!..he spends 20 a day on lotto